Sin vs Peace

When someone preaches about how "sin" separate one from "God", it sounds like something in the spiritual realm or some say it's so "out there". What would impact me directly or immediately anyway? I didn't experience it so vividly until very recently.

I like to take a form of escape sometimes when I got stressed out or too tired. You would think when you get tired, you go to bed but it isn't the case for me. When I work, my brain goes 150mph, hands-eyes coordination races against the clock. Then when I call-off the night, my thoughts continue to race while I was lying on the bed. So I pull out my iphone and find something to entertain me or to distract my mind. Sometimes, I ended up watching something I shouldn't and one thing led to another... you know what I mean.

All in a sudden, I felt so distant from God. It's like when you want to talk to your best mate and he closes his door and shut you out. It hurts. I felt "no peace". Even thought I true-fully prayed to Him right afterward, I felt the connection wasn't there. It's like a busy signal in His channel. When God isn't #1 in my life, I already know something isn't right. But with a busy signal... I can't even begin to describe the level of desperation that I felt.

I remember when I was young, I would just continue my business and put God out of the picture all together. My mind would reason: It's my personal time, I don't think you would want to be a part of that and when things get passed, I would let Him back into my life. I fell.

Apostle Paul said in Romans 6:19, "I am using these everyday examples, because in some ways you are still weak. You used to let the different parts of your body be slaves of your evil thoughts... (CEV)" So true.

Then the scripture continues, " 20 When you were slaves of sin, you didn’t have to please God.21 But what good did you receive from the things you did? All you have to show for them is your shame, and they lead to death. (CEV)"

Enough said.

"I want to please you Lord my God. You gave me hope, life and peace, without you I am nothing. Please forgive my sin. I am so sorry. Thank you for allowing me to experience this which I couldn't feel before. Thank you for teaching me this valuable lesson today. And thank you for your mercy and forgiveness towards me."